Sometimes I need to vent and this is a secret place where I can do that.


I often find myself hating him, feeling angry and resentful. It is small things. Things that annoy me about him that bring up all the ugly things I've ever thought or felt and then wishing it were different. I contemplate divorce, separation, and then try to fight those thoughts. I one big circle. I'm Scared. I'm just plain scared. It never seems the right time for various reasons and yet I want out so bad. No, I want out of the addiction relationship but still have the man I got engaged to. He was sober then.